Still not in Pune.
Its mid june and i am still in Mumbai, i was suppose to be in Pune. Its affecting me and my job. I have been home for months and i need to get one as soon as possible. I cannot get one unless i am settled in pune. Hopefuly i will be in Pune by the first week of July. So this is it, this is the moment of my life where i am changing my phase, moving on to the next part of my life. Its life i am talking about, its only once. I have stayed here all my life since birth and now that i am shifting to other place i will also be getting to work and become responsible. That’s the next part of my life. This life of mine is so fucked up. I have decided i will never get married in this life, i will adopt orphan kids very later in my life and i am also thinking of donating my body organs after my death. Gosh i don’t know why i am making up my mind with all these stuffs but i don’t know, i might just do it. That means i am going to die virgin, shit. But fine, this life itself is a sin.
I have suffered and i am still suffering in all the ways. I am so unhappy with my lifestyle and very unsatisfied with what i have. It’s kind of not so good to be like that but i am not being like that on purpose, but its just so much in me. I don’t want my kids to suffer the same. Besides, i can just live for myself if i don’t have kids and a wife. I can travel the whole world and watch all beautiful places and eat new things, well i love that and have always wanted to do it since i started watching Discovery travel and living channel. I can just imagine myself travelling alone ahead in my life. So if i don’t have kids, i will also be doing a favor on god. No life means no suffering itself and no more lives bothering god by praying and asking for things. So fuck all the fucks, i am ending it by not giving birth. Yeah there would be some dirty little secrets about me tough in the future or say the dark side of my life which no one will ever know, but thats too personal and not really bad or anything like that.
